I’ve learned something new today.
During a heartbreak, it is so easy to slip down a slope of self-blame and think that if I had just altered my words a little or stopped asking about the future, it wouldn’t have fallen apart. However, the truth is, if I did all that and more, the results would just be a prolonged doubtful relationship. The questions and feelings I had would have eventually resurfaced anyway. They were important things to me and you couldn’t see that.
That past version of me had to make the decision she did to become the version of me now. This version of me, which is still in progress, will be more sure of herself and more certain of what she deserves. If I didn’t do what I did, I would have never known what I know now.
Same goes to you. If we didn’t decide to part, who knows how much longer you would have taken me for granted. Whether this separation makes your mind clear and steer you back or not, I can’t count on possibly to keep me waiting anymore though.
“I’m constantly torn between “if it’s meant to be, it will be” and “if you want it, go and get it.”—
(via breakupjournaling)



